You Know When You Don’t Really Want Something Until You Cant Have It? Yeah Me too

I’ve been sitting here for 4 hours now, procrastinating and fucking around on facebook. Sure I pumped out a piece for Families in the Loop but really I just finished it off, it was mostly written already. Mostly I’m fucking around on facebook ย and twitter. I even set up Grand Master D on the little blue bird because a) he’s started actually writing on his blog and b) He’s a funny kid and I think the world would enjoy @theDekko on twitter. I could the worst parent in the world, maybe.

I’m pissed with myself for procrastinating so long on deciding whether to go to Blogher, the blogging conference in Chicago this weekend. Everyone I know will be there, except some but oh so many are. I wanted to go but felt weird about mentioning it to the King because I’m weird like that and I don’t feel I deserve it but I totally know I do and because it’s expensive but we can totally afford it and this is the fucked up mess I’ve been thinking for weeks. Then he booked his trip to Dallas, that’s when I knew I really wanted to go…. Michelle from They call Me Mummy even offered to let me be her roomy. She might be an axe murderer but she’s an Aussie axe murderer and lives near my Mother in Law so I was totally comfortable taking the risk.

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So the King is in Dallas, returning Friday night. He should be here, I should already be in Chicago but I’m an idiot and missed my opportunity, now I’m all green with envy and sad… Even Lucy is going, even though she’s not ‘going’ she’s just gonna hang with the peeps! WAHHH I know it’s totally ridiculous and #first world problems and stupid and I should have just said I wanted to go but I didn’t and snoozers are losers, see I KNOW this now. Next year I’m going. It’ll probably be in some loser place like Hickville, ScaryTown that no one wants to visit and everyone went this year and they only go every other year and I’ll have missed out again. It’s also my ‘go to Australia’ year and it will totally fall the same time I fly out…WHATEVER!

So I’m being whiny, it’s silly and I’ll get over it. It’s not important but I am sad. I will be living vicariously through all the statuses and post and blog posts and all the stories when they get back.

In the mean time I’m staying here with sick Miss Gremlin and Grand Master D and the vacuum cleaner that’s driving me insane.

Hmm, I may need rescuing from my self induced pity party. Bring chocolate.

 

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  1. Why do we feel silly bringing it up? I never even considered BlogHer (although now I totally regret that), but I recently mentioned to my hubs that I might like to go to Bloggy Boot Camp in Minneapolis in October. I thought he would be like “Why??” but he was totally supportive! Said he would go there with me – make it a business trip – but he would find something to do on his own Saturday while I go to the conference. What?!?!? Now, totally wishing I had sprung the BIG BlogHer on him. ๐Ÿ™

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  2. I too wish I could have gone but we don’t have the capital to make it this year. Maybe one day it will be near me and I can make it. I know you learn a lot of useful information and here success stories at the conferences.

  3. OK, Molley, as your fellow NYC mom blogger, I am going to pull you out of this shit hole. 1-I am missing blog her TOO! 2- We can make a plan to make the conference next year…no matter what 3-if your chocolate doesn’t arrive, there’s always a FOOD TRUCK to help ease the pain (we had a case of wine delivered yesterday so I am all set).
    Hang in there! In the meantime, we can plan our own little blogging party here in the city… no planes involved;)
    xo,
    Lisa

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  4. It’s the SITS Girls Bloggy Boot Camp. It’s just one day – Saturday, October 12 – so less expensive and less time. We are in NC, but my hubs company is headquartered in Minneapolis. So, he can make it a business trip – set up some meetings and visit with some colleagues while I go do my thing. I reeeeaaaallllyyy hope some of my blog buddies will be there, too! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  5. I’m in the same boat, sort of. I read through the list of seminars… First of all, I hate seminars, but none of them sound interesting or beneficial to me, anyway. But I really want to meet all my friends who live in the computer! I should be having dinner with my “coworkers” at Kim’s in-laws’ restaurant tonight, not hosting a pity party on Twitter! Dammit. But really, $400 plus air and hotel? For what, exactly? I’m hoping they hold it in Boston next year. And I’ll just get a “parties and expo only” pass. Because really, F seminars.

  6. Bought my ticket and then sold it. And I’ve avoided twitter most of the weekend so I didn’t hate myself for selling it. We were supposed to have family in town and the other reason was honestly the cost.. the only reason (other than networking) I wanted to go was to talk to brands for my other site. I couldn’t justify over $1,000 in expense this year. Maybe next year.

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