Illusive Sleep, I count 855,000 Sheep

Sleep is for chumps. I’m convinced of this……. it must be true. I know this because I’m the only person in this house not sleeping, so either my family are all lovely, rested chumps or I am 🙁  Maybe no sleep is for chumps…….

Why has my ability to sleep left me? I can’t get to sleep at night and when I finally do, I wake at some ridiculous hour like 5:30 or 6am. I try to go back to sleep but just can’t and lying there is useless, not to mention disruptive for the King, so for the last 2 mornings I have taken my pillow and my book and headed downstairs. It’s the weekend, I have nowhere to be ….. I’m clearly deranged.

I have to say I enjoy the solitude, the stillness of the early morning. It’s a peaceful time in the house. No one needs me………….for hours, it’s pure bliss, except for Sir Lickalot. He paces up and down and he whines. He doesn’t know if he wants to be downstairs with me or back in the bedroom with the King but I’ve shut the door and he can’t get back in. If I were smart I’d just throw some sweat pants on and take him out… but of course I’m tired …. it’s really early and I can’t be bothered. I choose to read for a while and drift off to sleep for an hour or two on the couch.

So why is this happening? I don’t know but I assume the dreaded menopause are beginning to trouble me. It’s not the booze that’s for sure.
It’s not any of the usual problems, late night eating, spicy food, too much coffee.

I’m also dreaming a lot, some good, some really awful. I don’t like it when I dream like that.

I wonder if stress is causing it? I know there’s been a lot of activity in the house. I’ve had my dad’s anniversary, I’m trying to plan a trip home….. Many things could be affecting my state.

It’s a problem. The other day to add insult to injury, my eyes have started to get very itchy. I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and it was pretty tragic.

I’ve been reading for a long time and subscribe to a monthly newsletter from women to women, which discusses all the joys ahead. There are many things I can do and I will start to sift through the info to see what I can do about it. I can’t be walking past mirrors shocking myself.. That’s just unfair, I’m still too young for that……. 🙂

Although I’m totally ready for the ‘next ‘ phase of womanhood, let’s face it the childbearing years can be quite tedious, the list of symptoms ahead is rather daunting. I like sleeping and wish to do it more now the kids are old enough to fend for themselves, not less.

I’ve changed my diet, stopped drinking and now this happens…. sheesh. Let’s hope the answer presents itself swiftly so I can get my beauty rest again.

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